First Day High
the only things that i have ever done during the summer break were to debate, to sleep, to study spanish, to write a book, and to sort out my bags and shoes. during that past months, i was teetering on the brink of insanity, going back and forth between hard, boring news and my escapist adventures in some other faraway land.
this and a bunch of all other very wrong reasons make me more than glad that the school year is about to start.
i can’t quite believe that i used to love long summer vacations. when i was younger, i’d complain that the two-month break was just not enough–that i needed a who year off from school work.
right now, things are just so different. i’m starting to really loathe eternal breaks. i can’t seem to get enough of planning and working and studying. people think it’s insane. people think i’m insane for actually loving work.
but seriously, i miss so many things from school. so many wonderful and horrible things.
i miss that unusual high i always get after i study for a test and before i take a test. i miss feeling that sense of excitement when i’m about to accept a test paper from a test that i really studied hard for.
i miss having to pass a project that i gave my all to. it’s different when you’ve put your heart into making that term paper or that compilation because you’re sure that it’s satisfaction guaranteed.
i miss having to spend time eating with my friends at mommy ying’s or at big mak. i miss having to just chat the minutes away and laugh out loud after hearing all the peculiar chika.
i miss the nightly meetings for miss silliman, the shouting matches with the gay coaches, i miss having to go home at the strike of midnight.
i miss walking down the crowded a/s corridor just to go to my classes. i miss having to dash from the ballet studio, up the ramp to the fourth floor for my bc class.
i miss the insanity of it all, the ranting, the rambling, the fiendish plots against terroristic teachers and the constant battle against the students who try too hard to be the teacher’s pets.
june 13. i can’t wait for the first semester of my second year in college to start. there are several things that i’m looking forward to, so many new experiences that i have been blessed enough to be given the opportunity to take part in.
my horoscope said i’m about to meet several interesting people. perhaps this school year, i most certainly am.
June 8th, 2006 at 2:02 am
dear.. i’m happy to see that you’re open-minded about astrology.. but i must say i disagree with you about loathing “long summer vacations.” ;p perhaps maybe this summer break had been a meaningful one to me, even though i had the initial fear of being really alone here for about 2 months and a few weeks. i’ve been a “monk” stace. hahaha. you see, during the past vapid and wearisome weeks, just like you spared moments to some “solitary bolstering of brain cells,” i’ve studied the ancient runes…and when i graduated from the hard work of memorizing and deeply understanding their spiritual and eclectic meanings, i decided to do a reading for myself… apart from some negativities that resulted, fortunately part of it said that i will meet new interesting people! and i will receive unexpected “gifts!” i wonder what that means. anyway, i do miss you. i’m looking forward to knowing you more, dear. you’re one of the most “out of the ordinary” creatures i’ve met since high school. ;p haha. no sh*t. thanks for the friendsihp dear. mwah! Goddess bless you.