Brutality of the Goddess

Silliman has a collection of interestingly eccentric things.  As to how eccentirc some of these things are will depend upon the one who perceives.  but just to get you started on it, let me mention quite a few–both things and people.

first, there’s the susg computer.  it’s an antique really, perhaps from the pre-cambrian era or something.  sometimes, i think its either bewitched or possessed like the door of h2 (which i’ll tackle on shortly).  if there’s any item in silliman that i’d most certainly like to practice my crude fighting skills on, it would have to be the susg computer.  i remember that gorgeous 10AM last tuesday when i had to print the deans’ letters for the miss silliman pronto.  the freakin thing just wouldn’t cooperate.  thanks to the brontok virus (okay, so maybe that’s not really the technical name of the little bugger), the dear computer restarts itself every thirty seconds just as microsoft word would open.  frustrating is an understatement.  but hey, i developed world class wrist techniques on opening a document faster than the speed of light before the brontok virus could attack.

where there’s an office computer, is also a printer that’s nuts.  get this: if the cpu works well, the printer’s the one that needs the nice pc doctor’s consultation.  not only does it cause the enter desk to reverberate like crazy, it prints one line, pauses for a few seconds, adds another line, pauses again.  good lord, i didn’t think i’d finish printing all 30+ pages.  how rotten is that?

then we have the infamous h2 door.  bewitched, bothered, bewildered, possessed–heck, i really don’t know which of those maladies has befallen the door.  one time, i hurried rushed towards the door, precious key in hand, fumbling to snap the lock open.  i twisted the key in the lock, did all sorts of maneuvers, even knocked on the glass pane and asked the silliman spirit to quit playing games and just open the dumb door.  i remember phoning lycar and asking her if i had to do some ceremonial offering just to appease the spirits of the door.  an eternity later, and i don’t know why it had to take that long, the door finally swung open.  day saved.  but i was terribly exhausted.

let’s talk about people.  i heard there’s this queer (as in strange and not gay) teacher i’ve heard of who never requires his students to bring pens and pieces of paper to class.  he doesn’t give tests, quizzes or things like that.  he just drones on with his day’s lesson.  how does he give you the grade?  he says he’ll judge it by the twinkle in your eyes.  so make sure your eyes twinkle a lot, k?

then there’s out beloved debate coach.  just a few reminders.  never tease him or he’ll tease you back with such vengeance it’ll leave you tossing and turning at night.  never talk back.  he’ll always have his way done.  never pick on him.  you don’t want him picking on you.  never, ever piss him off.  you don’t want to see him angry.  when your on an out of town trip, don’t make it known to him that your congregating with friends.  it’ll only raise suspicions that you might be talking about other debaters. 

finally, the teacher who teaches even though there aren’t any students in his classroom, discusses even though there isn’t a soul around just because he believes he’s paid to do that.

I’m just really tired after having to traverse the 56 hectare main campus of silliman today.  i couldn’t think of anything else to write so voila!  a journal entry meant to de-stress this soul who badly needs bowls upon bowls of chicken soup.

the only things that i have ever done during the summer break were to debate, to sleep, to study spanish, to write a book, and to sort out my bags and shoes.  during that past months, i was teetering on the brink of insanity, going back and forth between hard, boring news and my escapist adventures in some other faraway land.

this and a bunch of all other very wrong reasons make me more than glad that the school year is about to start.

i can’t quite believe that i used to love long summer vacations.  when i was younger, i’d complain that the two-month break was just not enough–that i needed a who year off from school work.

right now, things are just so different.  i’m starting to really loathe eternal breaks.  i can’t seem to get enough of planning and working and studying.  people think it’s insane.  people think i’m insane for actually loving work.

but seriously, i miss so many things from school.  so many wonderful and horrible things.

i miss that unusual high i always get after i study for a test and before i take a test.  i miss feeling that sense of excitement when i’m about to accept a test paper from a test that i really studied hard for.

i miss having to pass a project that i gave my all to.  it’s different when you’ve put your heart into making that term paper or that compilation because you’re sure that it’s satisfaction guaranteed.

i miss having to spend time eating with my friends at mommy ying’s or at big mak.  i miss having to just chat the minutes away and laugh out loud after hearing all the peculiar chika. 

i miss the nightly meetings for miss silliman, the shouting matches with the gay coaches, i miss having to go home at the strike of midnight.

i miss walking down the crowded a/s corridor just to go to my classes.  i miss having to dash from the ballet studio, up the ramp to the fourth floor for my bc class. 

i miss the insanity of it all, the ranting, the rambling, the fiendish plots against terroristic teachers and the constant battle against the students who try too hard to be the teacher’s pets.

june 13.  i can’t wait for the first semester of my second year in college to start.  there are several things that i’m looking forward to, so many new experiences that i have been blessed enough to be given the opportunity to take part in. 

my horoscope said i’m about to meet several interesting people.  perhaps this school year, i most certainly am.

remember those crazy tests in blogthings.com? well, let’s just say that one afternoon the author simply had nothing to do and thus decided to try out some if not most of the quirky quizzes the site had to offer.

some of the results are very true.  some are just reflections of pure insanity.  check it out and you be the judge.

test 1-how evil are you?

34% EVIL-A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

test 2-what kind of soul are you?

you are a dreaming soul-Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all…
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

test 3-what type of writer should you be?

you should be a film writer-You don’t just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.
You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.
Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.
And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

test 4-are you hot?

you are more mild than wild-You’re confident, and you really aren’t concerned with how "hot" you are.
Other people’s ideas of what’s sexy don’t concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

test 5-are you addicted to love?

you are 17% addicted to love-Might as well face it, you’re not addicted to love.
And this means you have a very healthy approach to relationships.
You fall in love with the right person, at the right time, for the right reasons.
Love is something you want - not something you need.

test 6-what’s the gender of your brain?

60% female; 40% male-Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

test 7-how powerful are you?

you are 80% powerful - You’re a very powerful person, and you know that all of your power comes from within.
Keep on doing what you’re doing, and you’ll reach your goals.

test 8-what does your birth date mean?

You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things.
You tend to be close to family and friends. But it’s hard to get into your inner circle.
Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home.
You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak.

Your strength: Your intense optimism

Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents

Your power color: Jade

Your power symbol: Flower

Your power month: June

test 9-your five variable love profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you’ll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is low.
You’ve probably either had only one relationship..
Or all of your relationships have been very similar.
You still have a lot to learn… and a lot to try!

Dominance:

Your dominance is low.
This doesn’t mean you’re a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is high.
Sure you believe in love, but you know it doesn’t come easily.
You scoff at "love at first site" and "soumates."
You rather take the real thing, as unglamorous as it is.

Independence:

Your independence is high.
You don’t need to be in love, and sometimes you don’t even want love.
Having your own life is very important for you…
Even more important than having a relationship.